lots of cheating, rejection and controlling parents.

It was pretty fucking hard to cope with losing Hannah Mallory. In the long run though, letting go was simple once I realized how easy it was to manipulate her. Not that I indulged often, but her parents were the single leading cause of every thing that happened in her life. On top of that, they were rather prominent…excuse me, I mean big mouthed. Not only did I lose a decent relationship, but all of sudden, most of my friends were never allowed to hang out with me. Different churches I ran to for solace shunned me. Thus beginning my tension with Christianity. Needless to say, I lost a lot of things because of two very selfish people and their very empty lives.

Now I’m on the verge of losing yet another girlfriend, but this one’s a bit more important. Actually, you could say that she’s the love of my life and I would live perfectly fine without her, but goddammit I’d be miserable. I’m very commited and very scared. I kinda stopped doing the whole “fear” thing a long time ago when I accepted the fact that I’m not in control of my life. But I don’t want to live a life free of tosha marie. Again, this is all because of two very shallow, selfish, incompetent people. Her lovely parents. I’m tired of dealing with dependant people, and I’m especially tired of people and their half-assed emotions. Why anger? like..why in the fuck would ANYBODY prefer anger over reason? If I had to make a final statement about my faith,…if there is a God, I don’t recognize him as even half decent…just for the fact that he created anger